Overwhelmed

My friends, I am feeling a little overwhelmed today, and I anticipate the feeling to continue for quite a while.  There is just so much that still needs to happen before the kids return to school in two weeks.

I know it'll all get done, but in the meantime, I am forced to take these few weeks one day at a time.  I can't, for instance, do what needs to be done tomorrow right now, as much as I would like to be able to.  It would be such a blessing to be able to work without stopping for a few days to earn a few days of rest, along with peace of mind, knowing that everything is set, but no.  Everything needs to happen at its appointed time, and I must keep my eyes open for small pockets of rest, and rest in them, in each day, each hour.

It is so hard to rest, knowing that there is still work to be done.  It is so hard to rest when my mind races ahead to the next task, the next day, the next week.  Knowing that there is not much margin of error in these next few weeks.  Wondering if I can keep the tight schedule.  Wondering what I will need to let go if I can't.

It rankles, to be at the mercy of time, when I so desperately crave control.  My lists, my schedules, those I can control.  Time is one thing that I cannot. 

So, my friends, off I go into this wild and crazy adventure of the next few weeks.  Wish me luck.

And I wish you well in all of your journeys, one day at a time.

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot, 
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8