I set some goals for this year. And then I almost immediately regretted it. And since then I've been ignoring them entirely.
It's a bit flummoxing. I mean, I absolutely rocked my goals last year, finishing 20 goals by the end of June. And if ever there was a year with a good excuse to give up on goals, it was 2020. But I didn't give up last year. And I did give up this year. Or actually, I didn't give up, I just avoided, which is probably worse. I am not willing to admit to myself that I made a mistake, so I'm just not. Not anything.
It is actually not at all confusing or perplexing, y'all. I am spent. All of the emotionally energy required to make it through the past 15 months, supporting and loving my family well, has emptied me, and I got nothing left*. There is no more emotional energy to care about completing goals that I don't actually want to complete.
Anyway, it's not all bad news. Or even any bad news. Just news, I guess. I may or may not complete any or all of my original 2021 goals, and that's ok. I have given myself permission to not stress about it (which does not mean that I am, in fact, not stressing about it, but whatever. Baby steps).
Well. I'm glad I've got that off my chest and out there into the universe. So how about an update**?
You guys. I am so close to achieving a Superstar or better rating on all of the Extreme versions in Just Dance 2019 and 2020. I am one song away. What? Who am I? A superstar, that's who. (That was ironic. There is no way on this earth that I would actually call myself a superstar. Ha. The very thought is preposterous.)
I'll keep you posted.
Or not.
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* Are you as annoyed as I am by how dramatic I'm making it sound? I mean, it feels dramatic, but also the human system tends toward homeostasis, which means we can become accustomed to anything, so it's not actually all that dramatic. It just is.
** I believe what you just experienced is known colloquially as whiplash.
I don't remember if I when set goals...
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